20 November 2017


FROM STEVE ECKERT REGARDING CURRENT PROGRESS

Dearest Edji,  Thank you so much for all your help with identifying feelings.

I still listen to 'music' (chanting) every night and much happens which usually is totally unexpected at the way it happens.  I try to disregard the mind’s concepts, but some have been there long-buried.

Anyway last week lying on the couch and noticing all the plants we have around the room....all of a sudden all the plants were connected and living their lives, being alive, a display of the Life Force I guess.   Anyway I don't know how to put this, but it is like a feeling/seeing  so that I could somehow 'see' the Life force through my feelings.  It was just flowing through all the plants and all the different uniquenesses between them.   It was like a mist, a fog of sparkling little dots of Life just moving like clouds in the sky into all the plants....each having individuality.

Even today the Emptiness can be 'seen' through feeling and that feeling has developed because of your teachings Edji.

Still very new to me this method of 'seeing' and 'feeling' at the same time!

This is such a wonderful experience and journey and nearly impossible to relate to anyone.  Everything has become so exciting in day to day life with this body.  This body is just the circuitry that the Emptiness uses and I just love the new happenings, each and every day.

I was always afraid when you explained that in your experience it was like living in a Void for many years and I really didn't want that . 

This seemMys to be completely different.

 Day to day, it is just bright with sparkling life.

If the Emptiness can be called life which I am sure it can....actually it is more full of life that this world has ever seen. It has beauty and bliss beyond imagination and its going to become more so every day.


Thank you Edji for calling me to you.  My dearest teacher....I Love You!



Ed's Response:

My Dearest Steve,

I am so happy for you.  You have taken to my teachings like a duck to water.  Each month you seem to grow in new dimensions. 

There will still be down days and weeks as you already know and are prepared for, but your marrying of sight and feel adds a new dimension for others to aspire to or at least know it exists, and you articulate it so well.  

I love you too...


RELATIONSHIPS, SPIRITUAL BYPASSING, AND THE TRUTH ABOUT MANY GURUS


Eastern spirituality, especially Buddhism, Advaita, and Zen, mostly entirely ignore teachings about how and why to do relationships.  Relationships, love, bonding are downplayed and dismissed as the most common source of suffering. Robert and Nisargadatta never taught about relationships staying with the position that the world is illusory, people are appearances within consciousness, and Truth is to be found by diving within and exploring the subjective layers of consciousness and Self.

But most Western people in spirituality really are seeking a stable love relationship, or are escaping from a bad one, or are desperately frightened by them from fear of getting their hearts broken.  Thus they are lonely and afraid, and come into spirituality because of loneliness, loss, grief, and fear of repeating a bad relationship, or a divorce. These are psychological problems, problems with handling emotions, love and bonding, not a spiritual problem of not knowing one’s transcendent self.

If your primary motivation is life is seeking human love, emotional connections with others, or being accepted and understood, your involvement with Nisargadatta, Zen, or Robert Adams probably is largely a bypassing of your human wants and needs.  If you feel utterly confused by life and by relationships, the answer is the same, for seeking spiritual knowledge about consciousness, self, the Subtle or Causal bodies absolutely does not address that primary need of yours.

Robert and Nisargadatta address totally different issues and needs, which is knowledge of your self as consciousness and as an energy being and the ultimate witness of all. Their teachings are for those who have entirely given up on the world, or who have completed their human “missions” (so to speak) on this earth and who wat to know what is next?  What is ultimate truth.

Buddha I the prime example.  Because he saw suffering and death was intrinsic in being a living being in relationships in the world, he gave them all up in search for a beyond, the ultimate release from attachments to others and to desires, such as for love and family.

This Satsang Video explores all these issues.



19 November 2017

Almost all self realized teachers agree that Bhakta or love, and the highest knowledge, or wisdom, are in the end, the same.  But what do they mean by this?  Certainly, when practicing self inquiry, doing body scans, scanning the chakras, looking within to find the internal void, watching the thought process, intuiting the different parts of the self, including the Lifeforce, and inner energies, is certainly not the same process as a loving, as worshiping, as surrendering to another.

In fact, it is my understanding that seekers are of differing personality types.  Some find the process of loving another, God, guru, person, and animal, and following that path of devotion, of taking care of, of surrendering to, a more natural path than the inner path of the Jnani, looking only into him or herself, and finding the various subjective worlds within.  One is an outward path of relationship, even if it is loving and abstract entity like God, a statue, a saint, or actively loving somebody in the present.  The other is totally inward.  It is US the watcher or the feeler, the subject of feeling or investigation, exploring one’s inner void, the inner darkness, the inner body energies, bliss, and emotions.


I think in fact they only come together where they both meet, at the end stages of the other approach.  Fulfillment of the Jnana approach, finding knowledge of the self, then naturally turns into love of the outer world.  One has fully explored every aspect of one’s own being, at least the aspects we have learned through long journeys into ourselves, and having done that, our attention turns to the external world and to others.  It is only then that the most intense Bhakta-love relationships possible are given as gifts to you, because after the self is forgotten through knowing it totally, you can love another without restraint, with utter abandon.










SUNDAY SATSANG NOVEMBER 19, 11 AM ARIZONA TIME. COME EARLY, SIT WITH ME.
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My background is psychology, Zen, and Advaita for over 40 years. Because of my psychology background I emphasize feelings and expressing emotions as part of any serious search for self realization. One can find many experiences, many states of mind and consciousness, and many kinds of emotions and emotional blockages when looking and feeling into your sense of self: Emptiness or the Void; the inner light of consciousness; internal energies such as Kundalini, Chi, energy centers or chakras; one's own sense of presence, which feels like and energy field within and around one's body; experiences of the divine arising within; great experiences of surrender and of merger to God or to another; self, as universal consciousness; emotions; finally, the most important thing, being able to love completely, totally, with abandon.
It is about all of these issues and areas that I teach. Come, we will explore these together. This way is not so much about teachings, but learning how to experience your self on all levels, to discover and manifest everything that you are, from the divine, to complete nothingness, consciousness, all of which is embodied in a physical/mental bundle. You are incarnate.

12 November 2017

SUNDAY SATSANG NOVEMBER 12, 11 AM ARIZONA TIME. COME EARLY, SIT WITH ME.
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My background is psychology, Zen, and Advaita for over 40 years. Because of my psychology background I emphasize feelings and expressing emotions as part of any serious search for self realization. One can find many experiences, many states of mind and consciousness, and many kinds of emotions and emotional blockages when looking and feeling into your sense of self: Emptiness or the Void; the inner light of consciousness; internal energies such as Kundalini, Chi, energy centers or chakras; one's own sense of presence, which feels like and energy field within and around one's body; experiences of the divine arising within; great experiences of surrender and of merger to God or to another; self, as universal consciousness; emotions; finally, the most important thing, being able to love completely, totally, with abandon.
It is about all of these issues and areas that I teach. Come, we will explore these together. This way is not so much about teachings, but learning how to experience your self on all levels, to discover and manifest everything that you are, from the divine, to complete nothingness, consciousness, all of which is embodied in a physical/mental bundle. You are incarnate.

08 November 2017

Authenticity

There is a huge misconception that a teacher or guru has everything figured out and is a total master of everything, including relationships. That certainly is not the case.  If you had seen all that I have seen with regard to teacher-student, teacher-teacher, and guru-spouse relations that I have, you’d know they struggle in the same pit as everyone else.

Even if they operate from the heart, the heart can be fooled.  It can make wrong choices.  It can make mistakes.

What would save the day in all such situations is clear expression of feelings and intentions so as to better mold expectations and define needs and behaviors.

The thing about many teachers is that they are not comfortable expressing feelings.  Many don’t have the words for feelings or even intentions.  They have been molded by their spiritual training often to ignore feelings and instead, perceive energies or many otherwise unconscious processes only.  Their emotional expressions are very limited.

These teachers use energies and expressions to affect people more or less on an unconscious level, and in a sense possess their student’s on an unconscious level. Osho was a master of this, using intellect, studied methods, and many other devices to create an aura of godhood around himself as a divine show, attracting thousands to follow. 

But around him was chaos.  The organization was not under his control.  Only his aura was under his control.  Ultimately he died of drugs or was poisoned as even his aura got out of his control because his mind and perceptions become too clouded.

This is where the West has a more clear line of escaping from the trap of energy or many other sorts of unconscious relations by providing a voice for largely unconscious feelings, and requiring emotional authenticity.  The latter is almost completely unobtainable for many.

As I quoted David Spero in an earlier post:

“Knowing and expressing one’s feelings is the very definition of authenticity, and any good enlightenment teaching will tell you that the "first commandment" in sadhana is: "Thou shalt be sincere.””

30 October 2017

Seduced by the Void

The silence of the Void is very seductive.  Once you know it fully, it keeps inviting you to pay attention only to it.

The emptiness, the space of the Void penetrates everything, all experience, from that of the body, the mind and its thoughts, emotions, and also cuts ambition. One wants to just rest in the Void.

The internal spaciousness of the Void is the same as the space we perceive outside: both are visual phenomena.  The skin boundary between subjective and objective experience disappears.
But after a while you notice that you are witnessing both simultaneously.  You, the ultimate are outside of both, not subject to life and death.  But immersion in the Void is a powerful hypnotic attractor, and eventually you can feel qute isolated from both your inner world and your outer world.  You feel no motivation to participate in the world, and all emotions have been dissolved by the Void.

The only way out is to love.  Love something, love someone, and that will pull you back into life.  But it is not easy to love from that position of the Void.  That love usually has to come from without.  But you can aid the coming out by being aware that you have no love left in you and too long for that love. Longing is essential. Hoping, seeking, grasping.

28 October 2017

SUNDAY SATSANG OCTOBER 29, 11 AM ARIZONA TIME. COME EARLY, SIT WITH ME.
https://zoom.us/j/2950292557?pwd&status=success



My background is psychology, Zen, and Advaita for over 40 years. Because of my psychology background I emphasize feelings and expressing emotions as part of any serious search for self realization. One can find many experiences, many states of mind and consciousness, and many kinds of emotions and emotional blockages when looking and feeling into your sense of self: Emptiness or the Void; the inner light of consciousness; internal energies such as Kundalini, Chi, energy centers or chakras; one's own sense of presence, which feels like and energy field within and around one's body; experiences of the divine arising within; great experiences of surrender and of merger to God or to another; self, as universal consciousness; emotions; finally, the most important thing, being able to love completely, totally, with abandon.
It is about all of these issues and areas that I teach. Come, we will explore these together. This way is not so much about teachings, but learning how to experience your self on all levels, to discover and manifest everything that you are, from the divine, to complete nothingness, consciousness, all of which is embodied in a physical/mental bundle. You are incarnate.

23 October 2017

EXCHANGE BETWEEN DAVID SPERO AND ME-eXPANDED

To David from me:

One thing that is so very, very obvious to me now, almost all of my students are unable to articulate their inner processes, whether it is of energy states, emotions, neediness, loneliness, sadness, Chi, etc., and they tend to speak in very abstract ways about their inner negative experiences, and tend to use otherwise very inappropriate words, and are entirely clueless about their inner worlds, an thus about their external world. And intelligence does not seem to make a difference. The smart and knowledgeable are equally afflicted.

From David to me:

You wrote “...almost all of my students are unable to articulate their inner processes, whether it is of energy states, emotions, neediness, loneliness, sadness, Chi, etc., and tend to speak in very abstract ways about their inner negative experiences, and tend to use very inappropriate words, and are entirely clueless about their inner worlds, an thus about their external world. And intelligence does not seem to make a difference.”

I also face this issue with (many) guests at my events. The problem seems to be that few people actually live in their bodies. They are off in their imaginations somewhere, commenting on “self" from some far-away place, as though they live off-planet. Here’s an example: someone begins talking to me about “enlightenment,” about wanting to be “enlightened,” but as the discussion goes deeper (if it does), it becomes obvious that the real topic is sadness, loneliness, frustration and perhaps even depression. But the whole problem is falsely articulated in terms of “not being able to become enlightened."

Learning “assisted introspection,” and/or “learned articulation” could be helpful, since knowing and expressing one’s feelings is the very definition of authenticity, and any good enlightenment teaching will tell you that the "first commandment" in sadhana is: "Thou shalt be sincere.”

This sort of insincerity goes on spontaneously in such people and it’s chronic, i.e., ongoing—like a stream of consciousness fantasy, where one forgets one is fantasizing.

In such instances, I often have to go to great pains to even begin having a real and sincere discussion, having to even dismiss the initial comments. For immediately I can sense the disconnect between feelings and content of discussion. What is this, in a word? Insanity.

Namaste, David

Ed:

These are true wisdom teachings never heard in Advaita or Zen. But this is my experience. Almost all that come to me have no idea of who or what they are because they are not first, simply human, simply feeling and expressing their feelings.

I have a slightly different take on this inability of many of my students able to express their feelings: They were never taught the words. They were not spoken in their homes. So all the feelings these people have, in a sense are not well-formed. This is what a psychotherapist does: he or she guides the client into looking and feeling within, and giving life and form to undifferentiated emotions and energies. They help clients discover and express them as if they were still toddlers who felt feelings but could not express them because they lacked the words.

This is not really using one's brain, so to speak, but teaching the heart-feelings how to speak for themselves, especially feelings like fear, sadness, loneliness, emptiness, love, wants, and sexual desires. The undifferentiated "soup" of inner energies and unformed feelings become well formed and defined, and each is found to be related in its own way towards the personal self and the external world. This allows the person to be comfortable in his or her body and have an accurate map of the world.

22 October 2017

SUNDAY SATSANG OCTOBER 8, 11AM CALIFORNIA TIME. COME EARLY, SIT WITH ME.

20 October 2017

There is absolutely no difference between life and death, between form and emptiness, between something that is and nothingness.  After you have spent a lifetime of exploring different dimensions of your inner self, the outer world, of inner energies, kundalini, Chi, states of consciousness, and various openings for self-realization’s and other kinds of realizations besides that of self, all are seen as equal.  They are all experiences or lack thereof.  But still you are there either knowing or not knowing, perceiving or not perceiving.  It does not matter if you as either body or consciousness dies or lives, it is all the same.

There is only one difference for those who have truly grasped or been grasped by the absolute: Love!  And by this, I mean divine levels of love while in the human form, towards the divine in another, in a human or even an animal, or other spiritual being’s form.


Such total love for another, for their very personal selves, for their vulnerabilities, for their kindnesses, for their caring, for their lovingness, for their devotion, and their commitment, all of that leads to a total love so deep, so profound, that you fall at the feet of your divine in worship of her or him as yourself, as more than yourself.  For you have found God in another, and thereby found God in yourself.  And you are complete, God loving God, resting in him or herself, complete, profoundly peaceful, profoundly at rest, nothing more to do, nowhere to go, for you are side-by-side holding hands, touching hearts.

08 October 2017

October 8 Satsang Video.  The need to embrace both ends of the spectrum of You, from the very personal, to the divine, to the Absolute, and not just opt for the Absolute beyond the touch of consciousness.  There is great, great spiritual and growth value in personal versus “transcendent love.”  It keeps you grounded, and you need that, because both emptiness and Nothingness are so seductive, leading one to disappear.

Link:


07 October 2017

SUNDAY SATSANG OCTOBER 8, 11AM CALIFORNIA TIME. COME EARLY, SIT WITH ME.



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06 October 2017

Listen here to the truth.

Advaita works!  It works because its teachings are true.  Within your experience you will find the inner light of consciousness and the void or inner emptiness which penetrates everything within you, body, mind and emotions.  But you cannot find the absolute, the witness, because you are that.  That is, the absolute is not within your experience.  It is not experienced as that which is unchanging.

Indeed, personality is a kind of fraud, a feeling of separation, individuation, of being human.  Advaitic says “broaden your outlook,” look at the totality of your consciousness, everything you see hear, taste and touch now, disidentify with the personal and with your body, and reidentify with consciousness.  Then what do you get?

Read Nisargadatta.  Nisargadatta’s teachings are all about leaving the personal.  He says consciousness and your body arise out of the essence of the four or five elements. He says there is nothing personal there, all are the actions of an impersonal world spontaneously unfolding, or of the power that knows the way.  He goes into detail how the sperm and ovum get together and from that the seed of consciousness is born.  There is nothing personal here.  It is all just chemistry, impersonal, material, and we misidentify with the body and personality as us.

Instead we should identify with the totality of consciousness, and thereby transcend our human hood.  We feel immortal, because we identify with the concept of unchanging and eternal, or beyond even mortal and eternal.  But this absolute can never be seen, for we are the subject and therefore logically, we are outside of consciousness, so while consciousness may be fleeting, we as the observer are not.  One can directly have many experiences that verify this as any concept can be verified either in spiritual experiences or belief in religious scriptures.

And what have you gained following this process?  You have gained freedom from being an individual, a human, mortal, vulnerable, weak, suspect to death, disease, loss and loneliness.  Emptiness and the sheer knowledge that you are beyond consciousness in the body frees you from your human hood.  But at what price?

It is actually a solution for old people who fear death, for people with unbearable suffering from loss, depression, rage, anxiety.  Emptiness in the knowingness that you come from nothingness, as a result of chemistry, or physical mechanisms, supposedly frees you from identification with your personality, your needs, with your desperation.

But at what price?

And as Sasaki Roshi told me, and this applies to Advaita also, there is no love in Zen.  There is emptiness and existence, but no love.  What is the cost of losing that?  What is the cost of gaining invulnerability and transcendence, other than losing your vulnerability, your openness to experience loss and death, your total surrender to being just a blink in time, with a beginning and an ending within meaningless existence?

But what is the price of losing human hood?  What is the price of losing devotion?  What is the price of losing anxiety and fear?  The price is that you have lost your humanity, and this world true humanity is so very beautiful and so very, very rare.

I watched Robert up close, teaching.  Always his teachings pointed away from being a human, from suffering, from human problems, from involvement in the world, and instead know the message that you are God, transcendent spirit, beyond and before time and space.  But like Jesus gave a message of peace to calm a violent world, Robert gave a message of transcendence from human suffering, fear of death, depression, and fear itself.

But he himself went out of his way to take care of his wife and children even after his death by turning the teachings over to his wife Nicole.  Since then every Tom, Dick, and Harry imaginable has come along to claim ownership or successorship.  Robert also sought the love of a woman, even buying flowers for one was also his student, bringing her chocolates, and I know, because I was there. 

Why did Robert seek love?  There are many reasons?  When confronted once he said because they needed it, that love coming from a guru was an entirely different context from the love a man or woman normally receives from one another or from parents, siblings, or children.  And as such, it can be so much more powerful, intense, and thus healing and the most profound way.

In another way, feeling love for woman kept Robert human, any font to be human, he was always slipping from him into the inner emptiness he felt all the time, into the interspace it was dissolving his personal sense of self all the time.  He fought to keep the personal, to be with others in the world, not only out of compassion for others and what he can do to help them, but also to keep himself as a human, alive.


This is the truth.  I doubt you will ever hear this from anyone else.  Most teachers either teach of the Absolute and leaving the “mundane,” while the others teach embodiment only, and even if they know it well, in teaching they reject transcendence.  But those who teach both? There is a rare one in Sedona who may teach this way, sometimes.  There is a rare one in Portland, who might also teach this way.  And everywhere, a few rare students, who know this to be true.

05 October 2017

I have a problem.  No matter how much I read about losing one’s sense of being an individual, or a person, or of being impersonal, I can’t do it.  I am a person.  I am a human.  I am very, very flawed, and my sense of being vulnerable, in a sense, is my identity.   I am totally needy for love, to give it and to receive it.

Yes, yes, I know emptiness, and was and still am immersed in it for decades.  Yes, it permeates all my emotions and makes my body into an object permeated by nothing.  Still, I easily identify with my body.

Yes, I can obseve the entirety of consciousness and see it, know it as separate from me, but my emotions are real, powerful.  My need for others is as palpable, and actually much more so, than my endless experience of the Void or even the nothingness of sleep, or even my knowingness which precedes experience.

Consciousness is fleeting.  My body is fleeting.  My emotions even more fleeting.  But without devotion or being devoted too, life is nothing, brittle,  dry, worth less than a simple lick by my cat, or a glance from my Beloved. Love draws me back from the abyss of endless dryness, space, nothingness and roots me in my rare, rare existence as a person.


Essentially, all that I have taught is about comfort, distancing one’s self from suffering, from fear, from neediness.  It is used as a crutch by many, soothing words of space and the void, which are nice to know, but so very rare and short is my life. I value it so much, and more than anything else, to touch and be touched by my Beloved.

04 October 2017

This is an advisory, to be noted and filed away for the future.

There is a secret teaching shared by true teachers, real teachers, only with a teacher of similar rank and understanding, or a very rare friend, or a very rare student.  It is a teaching so direct, so immediate, that everybody knows it to a degree, but fears it immensely.

There are so few people who are able to love completely anything, someone, something living.  That complete immersion in devotion for another is a magic key to spiritual maturation.  The depths of one’s being is found in the love for another.

All the other teachings will are preparatory.  Meditation, wondrous, concentration on the Scriptures, pondering the scriptures, are all valuable, but as preparation, not fulfillment.  When you are fulfilled through total devotion and surrender to another, God bursts you alive from within, completing you, exploding you, rendering you helpless for a bit, and even allowing a rare one to see they are themselves God.

The guru often serves this function, and he or she knows it, that he holds the hearts of many students in his hands and gives according to their needs, if it is within or her ability to provide given the situation.

This is the secret teaching, the teachings of the completely personal, of personal vulnerability and love.  This is this love that brings you alive and brings you to God, to the realization of the self as completely personal,  and yet the totality of manifest consciousness.  Such is the contradiction contained by this sage.

It is very rare to find another that you can love so deeply, completely, thoroughly, and entirely, that your own divinity is revealed to yourself.

It is so rare to find that deepest of all deep loves, and if you have not found it, just serve others, take care of others, give yourself to others, surrender to others, to a cat, to a dog, to an insect, to a beautiful tree, and thus begins the path of true devotion.

Advaita allows you access to the absolute, Buddhism to emptiness, which can render you fearless, and from this fearlessness to step back into the human hood, into the very, very, personal human you are.  And from that position, to love with all of your being this someone, something, with all your heart, with all your mind and spirit, emptying yourself out.

This secret no guru tells you in public, except a rare one who does not fear the rejection of others, because most of those that come to him, come wanting escape from their own sorrow, lost loves, or to find acceptance for where they are.  They do not want to hear that the final teaching is of utter devotion, reckless love, and passionate abandonment of self to complete the self.

But again, this is so very rare and secret teaching, a Tantric teaching. Most have to walk with bliss, enchantment, the energies, the witness, and everything beyond consciousness for long time until they are thoroughly aware of everything in nothingness and consciousness.  Having gone this far into nothingness, it is the hardest thing to come back, when it is so rare to be called back by someone into the world of hardness, the world of need, a world of love and loss, grief and death.


So very rare are the teachers that can say this, and even more rare are students who can feel this.  The teacher has to be so very gentle, and the students very open, and then one day a few grow greater than the teacher.

My Beloveds have fled Arizona to the four corners of the world, and my heart breaks.

01 October 2017

My Beloved

My Beloved has returned to me.

Years of emptiness, of space, and she returns.

We swim in each other’s love, sinking deeper and deeper into it.





















And surprise after surprise, we find the depths boundless, endless,  completely abolishing space and time.


Our linking is forever, beyond fickle consciousness’s reach.  I discover this bonding is between us all, all the time, an eternal linkage, available when you choose one, your Beloved; it takes you to a place never known before, entirely beyond spirit.

You feel it, but the words do not come.  How can they?  So limited is their reach and ability to explain.


Yet the divine mystery is within easy reach if only you die to you, to be in your Beloved’s presence, naked, humble, smaller than an atom, it is all revealed, and yet you know you have but scratched the surface of the mystery.  There is much further to go.



30 September 2017

First, you discover you are not your body and loosen your connection with it.

Then you realize you are really the spirit that lived within and lifed your body.

Then you understand that your body is just an appearance within consciousness, and your awareness expands.

Next you see that not only are you consciousness localized in time and place, but you are spirit, everywhere and everywhen.

Time and space are creations of consciousness and in themselves are unreal. Fictions. Concepts used for navigation within a continuum of spiritual realms.
No longer completely human, having transcended matter, you also see that consciousness, spirit, is contained within you.

How does this happen, this amazing unfolding of spiritual intelligence?

Only through love.

Love of spirit and the unfolding wonderment of transcending individual identification, she reveals everything.

Or, love of the guru whoever that is for you. The deepest love. Complete surrender to your Beloved, man, woman, beast or Jesus. It does not matter who or what you love. What matters is you empty your heart to your Beloved. Become nothing, the tiniest of Gopis, the tiniest, most insignificant ground that supports her body. This is the fastest, straightest, and most heart rending way. The messiest and direct path of God, to the divine within who lives you.

Yet, your humanhood is always accessible to you, never really lost, but transformed and expanded to be all inclusive.

My Beloved!

24 September 2017

LIAR'S SATSANG

SATSANG VIDEO-

As soon as you open your mouth, you lie. It is impossible not to. Language is a convention based on shared beliefs. The real lies entirely outside them. Your bring that net of illusion with you to satsang. Even the teacher has a net, but hopefully smaller. You each cast your net of illusion on the teacher and vice versa.

But the real can only be FELT when you meet heart to heart outside of words. Then the words spoken speak for and from your heart.

LINK LIVE 7PM CALIFORNIA TIME:

23 September 2017

The utter nonsense around the numerous sexual scandals surrounding gurus.



Spiritual teachers have often spent their entire lives exploring energy phenomena, processes of the subtle body, love, kundalini, Shakti, as well as the sexual aspect of Shakti.  These are not ordinary beings.  They have developed a heightened awareness of both themselves and the other, and all have developed a greatness of heart—that is authentic teachers.  And there are so many, male and female, such as in the Shaivite tradition.

Ramakrishna, one of the greatest saints of the 19 century, was well-versed in the sexual aspects of the Shakti, and transmission of the Shakti through various Tantric sexual techniques.  But here in the West, they are not taught, because in the West, sexuality is a highly charged subject and judgment for discussion.  Therefore, most teachers, if they choose to use these techniques or teach these techniques, do so behind closed doors so to speak.  This is not an open teaching.  They would be judged and found  guilty of the most heinous alleged crimes, and the entire sangha castigated and roundly criticized for having sex with a student.

But what happens with a teacher who is highly developed in the ways of Shakti, of love, of opening of the heart, feeling the emptiness, becoming lost in the ecstasy of sexuality as well as into the heart of his partner, it is not the awkward and tawdry affair it is for most people except those who are desperately in love.  In the latter case, their experiences approaches that of the guru and the loving disciple, male or female.

There have been so many scandals involving so many gurus, that now it is a totally hidden subject.  Nobody is teaching it anymore for fear of the repercussions, lawsuits, condemnation, public accusation, and lawsuits.

I want to read you something from a book by David Spiro called sexual yoga:

“Expressing sexual love is the energy of divine play.  Innocence of touch and innocence from the field of knowledge allow us to play in this divine garden.  We are neither male nor female deep within the body’s psyche, the core of existence, sexual love is a bodily play where the deepest level of feeling comes to be expressed.  In the height of sexual embrace the waves of Shakti engulf, purify and transforms our lives into divine consciousness.

Breath, feeling, and contemplation of the source of all beauty all merge in divine sexual love.  The yoga of sexual love is no different from any other worshipful act.  When the Supreme Beloved is felt and seen in the human face of your beloved, the natural urge toward ecstatic transcendence can be stimulated and filled.  Waves of divine bliss usurped the separate individual lives into one consciousness.

It is necessary in divine sexual yoga that human desire become yoked to the kundalini-Shakti through touch, breath and meditational consciousness.  The source of beauty shines through the activity of sexual play and the purity of the lover can glisten like the moon rise on a clear winter night.

Each person must become both Shiva or pure awareness, and Shakti, divine energy.  We cannot assume a limited psychological identity and participate ecstatically.  As we move into our emotional vulnerability, we find a child, parent, mother, father, brother and sister wanting to love and be loved.  It is not possible to move into divine sexual ecstasy unless there is this vast spectrum of felt lovability and infinite tenderness.

Sexual love draws us into the ultimate dimension of our spiritual life; it fills the body with Shakti, vibrational power that manifests this whole universe.

Celibacy is a natural condition for some spiritual aspirants.  For others, it is unnatural.  It is natural for those in whom it comes unforced and is unnatural when it is accompanied by effort.  So celibacy is often used to avoid emotions which are disturbing or make one feel too vulnerable.  Celibacy should not be a desired condition.  It has no inherent superiority over a sexually active lifestyle.

The closest metaphor for divine love and total awakening is expressing sexual love.  The most intensely fragile moment for human life are breathing and feeling the Shakti as each other.

Both homosexuality and heterosexuality, spring out of the total void.  Unconditioned energy is absolutely sexual.  Spiritual life and bodily life are one.  I am tempted to say that if you cannot maintain your self-realization in the posture of sexual love, then you are not truly enlightened.  Have you ever seen the expressions of Shiva and Shakti in the iconography of induced picture of spirituality?  You can see expressions of unfathomable tenderness to the point of pain.  It is not the sex act that is creating the pain but the perception of immense beauty and the attempt to express it bodily.

Devotion is endless love of God.  To love beyond duration produces a state of divine insatiableness.  Then we begin to know that we are being loved by that which loves us.  In divine sexual love, when both the body and emotions are yoked to the breath, which is established in the field of pure consciousness, supreme love becomes expressible as human touch.

Sexual love naturally contains meditation and devotion within it.  Divine touch or sexual loving this at the ground of existence naturally draws us into the deepest part of our being.  We offer what we are bodily in kindness and delicacy.  To the one we love we become a doorway to the supreme.

Mercy and forgiveness are natural qualities in real sexual intimacy.  We must become humbled by our own vulnerabilities.  Divine sexual love is not a sex act.  It is total surrender into one’s feeling.  It is not mechanical pleasure or successful sexual relations.  There is no sex act because the whole field of action is winding down, disappearing is one melts into one’s beloved.

Sexual hypocrisy or emotional-sexual phoniness is one of the great diseases of our time.  Sexual hypocrisy originates in bodily-sexual ambiguity in the field of touch and deep ignorance of one’s emotional nature.  Functioning in such an un-clarified state produces lukewarm sexual relations and robs the being of ecstatic sexual participation and transcendental experience.  What is that allows such a vast compromise?  Convenience, adherence to or rejection from social norms, and the terror of seeing and being seen in the nakedness of love.”
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So very, very few lovers attain to this state of total understanding of the grace of sexual love, and it need not ever be consummated.  Just the deep longing for the embrace of your beloved itself can set of cosmic-energy-like explosions of bliss, and feelings of being loved as never before.  A love so deep and profound as to heal so many of our lifelong traumas of the past.

So look and listen carefully with this understanding in mind before you judge gurus or teachers who have developed exquisite sensitivities to both their own heart of hearts, but also to the hearts of their beloveds.