22 October 2016


Awakening to your Manifest Self, your divine nature as Consciousness and the Life Force, liberates you from your culturally-imposed ignorance of being only a body/mind.  It liberates you from mind because the body center from which you lived, your center of gravity in consciousness, changes from your head to your heart/gut.  You become centered in your thorax, far “below” your mind, the head where your mind dwells, and the mind no longer captures you.  The longer you remain in your heart, the more that mind becomes merely an accessory tool for doing things, and its non-goal directed chattering disappears in relevance.  It becomes like the sounds of the news on a T.V. in the next room.  Sometimes an item may grab your attention for a moment, but only for a moment, an hour or a day.  No more.

I and Robert experienced it as an arising of a brilliant light thrusting upwards from my gut into my head and upwards into space.  The brilliant white light was accompanied by a feeling of immense power and knowing within that light, and buried within that light was a being of light, the Life Force, Shakti, who appeared at once to be the divine ‘other’, but also one’s own divine self.

Nisargadatta had similar experiences which he wrote about in his first book, Self-Knowledge and Self-Realization.

After this awakening, you can experience yourself iin many ways: as an incarnation of the divine, as was Krishna; as a human with a divine consort; as just consciousness awareness, with your body and mind being objects witnessed within your totality of consciousness.  That is you realize you are consciousness and not the body or mind, and consciousness also contains the world, which you are also.

Many, many paths fixate at this level.  The work is to free, explore, and expand the energies, bliss, Kundalini, or Shakti, and the student becomes stuck here as a Kundalini or Chakra Master and guru.

In this place, emptiness is the canvas upon which the life force lives and works through you.  Form and emptiness work together, each defining the other.

However, here lies a deep trap.  The person believes they have transcended the human condition and the body level attachment of the ego, but in fact, they have only broken the key heart source of being human, being vulnerable, open to emotions, open to threads of love and loss, sorrow and joy, calling these, and all other emotions, as signs of non-awakening.  These teachers and students are merely in denial of their humanity which they falsely believe they have transcended.

The last step, the one Robert and Nisargadatta taught in his latter life, is that of transcendence, realizing that consciousness and the life force itself are both not real, in the sense all these manifestations of life force and consciousness are limited in time, endurance, and are impermanent, but that there is something behind all of the manifestations that is aware of both the manifestations and their passing away, or objects, their arising and passing away, of emptiness and the disappearance or emptiness into nothingness.

Awareness can be aware of both existence and the disappearance of existence into nothingness, which is even the absence of emptiness, which is merely the container for objects, and is itself a super object, space and time, characteristics of the manifest world.

You yourself are always aware of this transcendent aspect of yourself when you are quite, without thought, aware of your body, mind, and world.  At that moment, your center is the transcendent, but then you are not aware of the transcendent because you are the transcendent.

Dwelling quietly like this for a long, long time, will result in a true experience of the disappearance of the world and an introduction to true Nothingness as opposed to experiencing emptiness.  The distinction between the manifest and unmanifest is totally known and you are free: free of your humanity, the world, yur body and consciousness; free from all.

This is the Advaita trajectory, and only a very few will ever cover this arc because of remaining attachments to body/world/habits/desires.

So, I advise people not to tread this path if they only desire Nirvana, detachment, the transcendent, because experiencing nothingness without having first experienced the divine within is a cold, dulling, and deadening path possibly leading to suicide or insanity, or deep sorrow of not having lived.

I recommend going through the self-realization of the manifest self first, and only then trying to pass beyond.

In any event, realization of the manifest self is the only step you really have any control over.  After its realization, the “path” to the transcendent is more or less automatic; wisdom matures all by itself, spontaneously.

This first step, realization of the manifest self is attained primarily through self-inquiry defined as locating one’s I Am SENSATION, not the I-thought, or I Am thought.  It is usually felt first as a presence, an energy or spark somewhere in the chest. Fining it and focusing on it, grows it.  It expands and grows, and gradually becomes an awareness of one’s own presence, an energy body that permeates your physical body and extends into the world.  Constant awareness of this presence within and without, one’s energy body, leads to realization of your Manifest Self, which is the only awakening you have any control over.  After that, it is all in the hands of the Life Force and Consciousness, to make you, the Transcendent, aware of the totality of the Manifest world and the Unmanifest, the unborn realm of the Witness, which itself is unborn, with no characteristic such as space, time, extension, or form.

Only dwell on the sense of I Am.  Such will reveal everything from your divine nature to your nature as Nothingness.

15 October 2016

Some people when they see light, feel only its burn and curse it. Others see love, feel it not, and curse those who feel it. Some people see God, feel Him within, and dance in his energies. Others look and hear for years and feel/see it not, and grow envious and angry.

Many see a real guru and understand nothing happening around him or her, and condemn them as fakers, con men, or insane.

Then we have those who do feel love, do feel bliss, do see light, do feel God within and want nothing more than to be around their like.
But then the blind gather to stone them and destroy their church, their home, their place on earth, for they experience nothing, understand nothing, and are unable to love. They can only judge from a place where nothing exists.
Be glad you can see the light, feel god's breath, feel his touch and grace, and hope one day that the others will too.

14 October 2016


My good friend Swami Shankarananda and I talked last night for some time.

He is doing well and Satsangs once again are happening giving many people access to the direct experience of Shakti.
  He shared that his own experiences were very reminiscent of his own experiences of the divine, the sense of surrender, the descent of grace, feeling utter humble in the presence of God.

Check him out in Melbourne Australia.
  I was in his Satsangs back in 1978-79 in Los Angeles, and later in the 1980s when he returned to Santa Monica and hosted Sw. Nityananda and others.  His Satsangs were always so sweet and rejuvenating.  I have long recommended his book “Consciousness is Everything,” and felt ecstatic while reading it.

If I did not have 8 cats and a living mother here in Arizona, I certainly would think of moving close to my friend of 38 years.  I think we were born about 4 days and about 500 miles apart, and we used to visit gurus together, such as Bernadette Roberts, Robert Adams, the Vedanta Center, other temples, and Sueng Sahn Soen Sa.

Thank you Swamiji for being my friend.

10 October 2016


The phrase I-Am is the cornerstone of Advaita philosophy. I creates the concept of an invisible subject that cannot perceive itself, and ‘Am” creates the concept of the entirety of one’s own perceived world which also includes the external world, one’s inner world of kinesthesia, emotions, thoughts, desires, pain and pleasure. That Am-ness also contains the experience of I. That is, there is a sensation buried in our experiential filed of ‘I’, apparently pointed inwardly to the invisible subject.

Am-ness, or consciousness, depends on the existence of a body. Without a body, there is no perceptions, no experience. One can follow that I-sensation inwards and “descend’ through various levels of Amness, including one’s experience of their bodies, the experience of the energy body, Kundalini, Chakras, etc., the experience of various Samadhis and bliss states, then the expeirnce of nothingness, the absence of experience and the absence of the I-knowing, of the I-experience.

Lastly, there is the experience of bare consciousness, absent an I, absent an Am, absent a sense of identity or self. This is called the hypnogogic state one experiences after awakening, and before one becomes consciousness of oneself as a person embedded in your life.

This is the pure I without a sense of identity or of even being alive, where the world and and body are observed, but no sense of identity has descended. The is no witness here and no witnessed. Words do not touch this state. This state Nisargadatta calls ‘universal consciousness’ because it is consciousness without personal identity, and is the same in all creatures, whether insect of humans.

Into this not knowing state, the life force begins its movement, starting the mind’s flowing, and the descent of the identity that I, who I know not, exist.

The I, without identity, without form, without substance, without existence, suddenly exists as an identity. This identity disappears when I fall into deep sleep, and also when I die, but it continues to exists in all the countless sentient bodies that sense the world.
But Nisargadatta states that the ‘I’ points to that which is aware of sentience of consciousness, not as an individual, but again, as that which is aware of ‘Amness’ as a principal, but also as nothingness, being entirely without existential characteristics, or qualities, such as form, identity, or extension in time as timelessness, and even beyond the duality of time and timeless, as that which is aware of the difference.

That is, the I, is entirely without the equality of existence, until it becomes aware of existence, of Amness. Thus the I is not born because it is beyond life and death, beyond time and space, neither mortal or immortal. Thus, it is also beyond talking, beyond words, an entire mystery to the mind, but entirely graspable as a spiritual intuition, one’s fundamental essence as the Absolute, the Noumenal, Parabrahman. Ramana refers to this knowledge of experiential/non-experiential, as Consciousness. But, it is a mystery to the mind, to the conventional ways of knowledge, or knowing objects and processes, and this truth is known only after dwelling in that not-knowing hypnogogic state for a long period of time.

05 October 2016

I have at times recommended that those who do not have a genuine Advaita teacher in their area, study with a Kundalini or Chakra teacher so at least they get to experience bliss and the energy body processes.
     I can no longer say that. I have had a lot of experience with several of them lately, and indirect experience as related by others who I have referred to such teachers, and I find none of them are really open from the heart. 
   Instead, they are immersed in energies, working with them, manipulating them, which has resulted in them from being human. It substitutes bliss and energies from having an open heart, being vulnerable and deep. All have personality structures that are quite defended, ultimately highly reactive, because they do not allow negative feelings to just ass through them. They cannot let sorrow or sadness into their hearts.
    Many, like Adi Da, are filled with very reactive personalities even as they proclaim they have none, and have transcended the personal.
     Fooling around with energies all the time makes one ego-oriented because of the efforts needed to stay in or increase bliss.
     Oddly, true spirituality of the Carl Rogers or the Robert Adams types, lie on either side of the energy body, and involves either being fully human, open to the frailities and sufferings of being human, indeed, using those pains and suffering to go deeper into the life force, or taking the 1980s Nisargadatta modality of immersing in the I Am sensation in order to disidentify with the body and reidentify with consciousness itself, as a whole, as a way-station to realizing the unborn absolute within.
     I have just looked at You Are That, the 1960s and early 70s talks of Nisargadatta, and there he talks about immersing oneself in the pains and suffering of life as the clearest path to true bliss as opposed to bliss that arises from Kundalini practice. This is what I was saying 2-3 years ago. His later talks were all about disidentifying from the body, reidentifying with the totality of consciousness, and worshipping the life force as a way to transcending everything by being the absolute watching it all.
      In a sense, Nisargadatta traversed a very similar path to my own.

04 October 2016


After Hillary gets elected, the main street media will begin to report on the crisis in the healthcare system that is tearing it apart.  To fund Obamacare, $700 billion dollars was stolen from Medicare, affecting mostly the Medicare Advantage programs.

Obamacare changed everything regarding the rules by which the elderly are treated.
  There are vast limitations allowed for seniors that were routinely provided before Omamacare.  Hospital doctors complain all the time. The amounts they and hospitals receive for almost all procedures have been dramatically decreased as well as far fewer authorizations for anything but routine hospital care.

But so many young people have abandoned the system and just pay the penalty for not joining, that the entire insurance system is also suffering.  One carrier after another is dropping out of Obamacare and the system will collapse unless we go to single payer, or Medicare for All.

But the press would not allow this to become an issue until after the election, because this too would be blamed on Hillary, because she supported it.
  Hopefully, this will be one of the first issues she addresses as president.

25 September 2016

SELF-INQUIRY IS NOT 100 YARD DASH. It is a long, long Ironman race. To get out of the stream of thought, the center of your consciousness has to be deeper inside of yourself than thought.

You have to move your center of attention into the empty awareness inside of your body to the heart chakra or below.

Spend time there. Look within. Somewhere near your heart resides for most people the sense of self, first found as a spark of energy. Attend to it. Over period of days, weeks and months, this sensation will grow into a complete sense of presence totally within, through and extending outside of your body, like a total capacitance or electrical field of some sort.

By attending to the totality of that sense of presence, one feels the empty space within, and can move your center of consciousness downwards from the brain and head area closer to the heart or in the region of the gut.

This takes one into a deeper emptiness, and at this center of consciousness, the flow of thoughts don't touch you anymore. It appears to be above you and in space like a constant chattering radio station which does not interest you at all because you are no longer immersed in the field of thought.

You never try to stop the thought, because that is the will, which is located at the level of mine still, in the head, in the brain and will just face an impossible fight with itself. Instead, just ignore the thoughts and concentrate on the IM sensation somewhere inside of your chest or lower, and fixate on it. Fixation and attending to it, and attempting to merge with it, gives it energy and makes it grow into one sense of presence. When that sense of presence is complete, you have a whole new concept of who and what you are, because you recognize you are not the body, nor the mind, but that sense of presence, that ecstatic state of flowing energies within, consciousness itself. This is your first step. Your first major step.

21 September 2016


Focus will be on the Self, self-inquiry, the nature of consciousness, and beyond consciousness, and the teachings of Robert and Nisargadatta.

There will be assigned reading--homework--for those who want to go deeper.

18 September 2016


But first you have to find your Self. That Self is not your body. The body is only the mortal shell.

What you are is the Life Force, Prana, awareness and that of which you are aware including your body. The body does not know itself but serves as the vessel for consciousness, which does perceive and feel the body, its motion, its organs, its pains and pleasures.
This awareness of your body also paints a humanizing picture of the external world from one point of view  (scientific/Nisargadatta), or creates an illusory world of the unreal, from another point of view (Robert/Ramana), which is purely speculation and makes no living difference.

Get to know consciousness by looking within long enough to become aware of the Empty Void within, and the light of consciousness, a phrase that denotes 'self-illumined'.

Once you begin to know yourself, love your self. Feel it. Honor it. Worship it and one day you will realize it is God, the divine, and yet it is also you.

Then one day after the madness and joy of self-realization passes, and you can even go beyond it to the source.

16 September 2016


Ever since I was a little kid I have read stories of places where people live an extraordinarily long time.  Usually it is a small and isolated culture somewhere in North Asia, or in some ex-Soviet Etceterastan village where everyone lives to be over 100, with the eldest claimed to have been born before Napoleon.

Well, I found another such village culture.

When I moved to Sun City two years ago, I did a google on internists in my area and found Dr. Raghav Mohindra and went to him to be my doctor.

Today I went to see him to get the results of some tests, for a B1 shot, testosterone shot, flu shot.  He also doe house calls for elderly and incapacitated patients.

Today he told me something incredible, amazing, astounding.  He has over 500 patients aged 100 and older!!!!

He backed that up by saying that recently there was an all-day event in the Sun City area just for centarians, people aged 100 or better.  180 centarians attended!

He also told me something else amazing.  He said when he was a little kid, he was terribly frightened of death and the associated suffering and pain.  But he said nowadays, there was no pain, no suffering, no suffocation involved in death except when it comes as an act of violence, such as an automobile accident.

He said with today’s pain medications, morphine, and the expertise of hospice, death comes peacefully for all, even for those dying from cancer or respiratory failure. Morphine eases the hunger for breath. Death comes gently.

So, the real Shangra La is right here in the Phoenix area, Sun City and Surprise on the West side, and Scottsdale on the East side, as well as Glendale, Youngtown, Peoria, and Phoenix.

He told me recently an 80 year old man was complaining to him about his life and wishing he was dead.  Mohindra told him, “Sorry old man, you have another 20 years.”

My own tests revealed I had a near zero chance of having heart problems or a stroke during the next five years, and only a 10% chance during the next ten years.  He takes very good care of me.

Dr. Mohindra: http://moremd.net/

Ultimate Truth

It is essential to closely observe the death of someone you love in order to correctly understand your own nature and your own life. Correctly observed, the experience allows you to grasp all at once the totality of your field of awareness, including awareness of everything within the body, including one’s sense of presence, internal energies, internal organs, your breathing, and at the same time, you can be aware of the totality of the manifest world arising simultaneously in the waking state. That is, the totality can be experienced as a totality, including the arising awareness that you are aware of consciousness as a single, continuous totality (Manifest Consciousness), but also aware that consciousness has not captured YOU. YOU, as witness, stand apart, a witness of oneness, the totality, yet apart from it.

Those spiritual paths that raise the body to a divine level, who worship it as a fount of truth and divinity, totally mis the point of the temporality of the body, and the temporality of consciousness too, which usually is snuffed out even before the body dies. From nothingness we come and to nothingness we go. To live life fully, grabbing all it has to offer in terms of pleasures, pains, excesses, bliss, and energies, misses entirely the lesson taught but not grasped: We come from nothingness and return to emptiness without a trace left.

We have to opportunity to discover one’s self as the root of awareness which sprouts into a seed of consciousness which begets the tree of consciousness.

It is not to ignore our bodies, but to be entirely aware of both awareness itself, and the totality of consciousness. Just being aware of our bodies and the divinity arising therein, blinds us to its limited nature, and how we need to grasp the totality of our lives in one fell swoop to obtain the highest understanding, the ultimate understanding.



It is essential to closely observe the death of someone you love in order to correctly understand your own nature and your own life.  Correctly observed, the experience allows you to grasp all at once the totality of your field of awareness, including awareness of everything within the body, including one’s sense of presence, internal energies, internal organs, your breathing, and at the same time, you can be aware of the totality of the manifest world arising simultaneously in the waking state. That is, the totality can be experienced as a totality, including the arising awareness that you are aware of consciousness as a single, continuous totality (Manifest Consciousness), but also aware that consciousness has not captured YOU. YOU, as witness, stand apart, a witness of oneness, the totality, yet apart from it.

Those spiritual paths that raise the body to a divine level, who worship it as a fount of truth and divinity, totally mis the point of the temporality of the body, and the temporality of consciousness too, which usually is snuffed out even before the body dies.  From nothingness we come and to nothingness we go.  To live life fully, grabbing all it has to offer in terms of pleasures, pains, excesses, bliss, and energies, misses entirely the lesson taught but not grasped: We come from nothingness and return to emptiness without a trace left.

We have to opportunity to discover one’s self as the root of awareness which sprouts into a seed of consciousness which begets the tree of consciousness.

It is not to ignore our bodies, but to be entirely aware of both awareness itself, and the totality of consciousness.  Just being aware of our bodies and the divinity arising therein, blinds us to its limited nature, and how we need tp grasp the totality of our lives in one fell swoop to obtain the highest understanding, the ultimate understanding.

15 September 2016

Katie--my beautiful Katie


She had received extensive treatment including multiple bood tests, X-rays, fluid therapy, multiple courses of anti-biotics and iron support supplements, as well as being syringe fed for the last five days.  He 3 vets were mystified.  The X-rays appeared to reveal pneumonia treated by three different antibiotics, but she continued to go down hill.  Her blood values were all normal, including kidney, except for an increasingly severe anemia treated by iron supplements.

The vet said her could not help her any more after the last antibiotic failed.  So I got all of her medical records to take to a recommended specialist, who I called the day before yesterday. I talked to a technician there and the doctor over the phone who asked many questions.  After I read her Katies blood values and recent medical history, she was very pessimistic, saying she is gravely ill.  I was to take her the next day (yesterday) to begin treatment, but when I awoke yesterday, Katie was much worse and was gasping for breath.  I knew it was too late.  She was too weak and now appeared frightened by her inability to breath.
Katie with her children

So yesterday at 3 pm. We took her to Grand Paws and put her to sleep.  They had a room prepared, with a thick blanket for Katie, and tissues for Kerima. As  per usual, the staff was wonderful, sympathetic, compassionate, and the euthanasia passed without incident, and both Kerima and I cried.

Watching her spirit leave her body, it was painfully aware that Katie  was her spirit and not her body, and that under anesthetic, consciousness left first, and with it her suffering, and then after the Euthenal was administered, her life force left and her body stilled.  Katie was entirely gone.  A brief flash of life and vitality that brought others and us joy for 16 years. This made me appreciate even more my temporality and present consciousness, and to actually worship it in myself and in others.

Some of these attached photos show Katie playing with her eight children—cloth dolls.  She often stood above one or more of them, and strongly lectured them about some misdeed of their’s.  She was a tough-love mother, always likely being surrounded by her children, and playing with them loudly in some other room than the one we were in.

God bless and keep you Katie!  I love you!

11 September 2016

Jnana is for the spiritually elderly

Nisargadatta said his last attachment, his last identification to his body, ended the moment he heard that he had cancer.  Bernadette Roberts said that the spiritual process she went through after full experience of unitary Christ Consciousness, was a gradual loss of everything, a gradual hollowing out of her identity as naturally happens with aging.

Robert Adams had his awakening experience to Christ Consciousness at age 14, but 34 years later he was still wandering India visiting teachers, including spending six months with Nisargadatta Maharaj in the late 1970s.  He still had an interest in spiritual knowledge.

When I knew Robert, he was already done with life.  He had no interest in the world, and just lived from day to day doing almost nothing.  He said if it were not for his wife and daughters, he’d be living alone somewhere doing nothing.  He said his dog Dimitri was his only attachment.

For all three of these teachers, Consciousness itself had lost its allure.

The intensity, the brilliant light and flash of the self-realization of the manifest consciousness, Christ Consciousness, gave way to the gradual or instant realization that they had nothing to do with consciousness. They themselves were nothing at all observing consciousness.  The states of consciousness came to them, one after the other, and they passively observed it, no longer engaged of very interested in its play.

All three were done with life, with their bodies, with consciousness.  The excitement was gone.  The bliss of the flame of consciousness was gone.

For these three giants, spiritual seeking, spitual seeking, spiritual knowledge, spiritual powers or siddhis, were all just entertainment within the field of consciousness, and when one’s interest in consciousness itself wanes, all seeking wanes.  Then one finds a different kind of happiness, one of being in peace, rest, with nowhere to go and nothing to seek.

However, old habits die hard, and Maharaj visited prostitutes after his wife died, and Robert became a notorious womanizer, both, I think, trying to overcome periods of emptiness or boredom.

Indeed, Bernadette called her loss of Christ Consciousness (Which she also called unity consciousness) a terrible catastrophe, and both Robert and Nisargadatta talked endlessly about nothingness.

So I ask all aspiring jnanis out there, “Are you ready to become nothing?”  If not, spend your time doing social work or practicing an energy yoga, or Kundalini yoga as long as you can, or continue to chase human love to keep you interested in life, because once your interest in consciousness itself leaves, you will have nothing, and can you tolerate nothing?  Are you ready for it?

31 August 2016

Robert Adams and Nisargadatta--A Perspective

I knew Robert very well.  I loved him and was in awe of his silence and ability to talk about nothingess endlessly, mixing that talk with the elements of everyday life.  And, under Robert, I attained first the oneness state of becoming the totality of my manifest consciousness, and then experiencing myself as just awareness, watching the various states of consciousness come to me, cover me, creating in alteration the sleep, dream and waking worlds.  He was a complete manifestation of a Jnani, a sage.

On the other hand, Nisargadatta is an enigma.  He appeared agitated, uncomfortable, was brusk, irritable, and rude.  Yet his words seemed more true than Robert’s because he was so brilliantly clear in his exposition of Advaita in everyday terms, describing the spontaneous arising of consciousness, and our truest identity as the nothingness to which we will return.
Robert spun out a beautiful tale about Brahman, transcendence, and nothingness, but Nisargadatta broke the whole of the manifest and unmanifest into baby steps that led to a progressive realization in baby steps that are very compelling to the mind that he teaches us to go beyond.
If I had to say it, I’d judge Robert as being deeper than Nisargadatta, more thoroughly embedded in emptiness, more at rest.  But Maharaj was more engaging, more forceful in his exposition of the ways of consciousness and its relation to the absolute, the noumenal, nothingness.

That is why I refer to Nisargadatta so often, because his teachings were so clear and methodology also so clearly laid out. Robert on the other hand, taught dozens of meditation methods, mantras, and used many superlatives about consciousness that did not seem to convey anything useful.
But it was not until I had a personal awakening to myself as Atman, as the incarnated God-principle, that the brilliance of Nisargadatta’s teaching became fully realized by me.
Unlike Robert, Nisargadatta spoke of realizing oneself as the totality of manifest consciousness first, staying there for a bit, then going into Nirvana.  Robert said nothing of this step, which was my experience.  He did not distinguish between satchitananda and nothingness. Nisargadatta did.

27 August 2016



Robert used to say, “Ponder this!”  and then recite some common argument or theorem of Advaita Vedanta.  Ramana did the same, speaking to students about the nature of consciousness, and Nisargadatta did also.

This is because Advaita Vedanta is not purely about self inquiry.  Although self inquiry is the most prominent method extolled by Ramana, Robert and Nisargadatta, in fact Advaita Vedanta has a philosophy of existence, or ontology, as well as a philosophy of knowing and the limits of knowing.

Pure self inquiry, without a foundation in a philosophical model may prove to be both endless and fruitless.  So the self inquiry proposed by all three teachers above, is really a guided self inquiry within the confines of a model.  In fact, all spiritual teachings and methods are like this, whether it is Kundalini Yoga, chucker yoga, Christian mysticism, or the philosophy of the Bhagavad-Gita.

Thus there is a wide gap between pure self inquiry without having any idea in mind, and self inquiry based on a model.  The origins of Nisargadatta’s model lay in the teachings of his guru, Siddharameshwar.  Siddharameshwar offered a model of the self of many layers, from the body of waking consciousness with an external world perceived by a body, the more subtle layer of internal energies found within one sense of presence, as well as the bliss found that there, deeper to the causal body where mind was absent and therefore perception was absent, to the lowest level, the deepest level, Turiya, with a sense of I resides.  Beyond that was the absolute, which was the absolute I that new the eye of existence.

However, unless one already believes the model, it is unlikely herself in query without a model in mind would reach the same understanding as self inquiry within the confines of a model of existence.  Nor would the attempts at logical argumentation by Robert, Nisargadatta or Ramana really make any sense.

For example, I present briefly a logical argument made by Nisargadatta in one of his books.  I will not tell you where I found it, because that will force you to actually read his books and look for the phrase if I do not tell you.  I make you do some homework.  Follow closely the brief argument he makes, and ponder whether his conclusion follows from his premises, and whether those premises can actually stand alone as obviously true.

“This is a subtle point, so try to understand it clearly.  When I say “I was not” prior to conception, then what I actually mean is that I was not like this present “I am.”  But that “I” which could discern this must be there to judge the absence of the present “I am.”

“Owing to the absence of a body, that “I” prior to conception had no sense of being or sense of “I am-ness.”  With the arrival of a body the sense of “I am this” is imposed on the prior “I.””

Now ponder this: as clearly as you can, restate Nisargadatta’s argument in your own words.  Does his argument prove to you, make any sense to you, convince you, that there is a pre-existing “I” to which a body appears, which then is able to witness a sense of I am-ness?

There are many other arguments like this.  Ramana says your body is not real, because it does not exist when you sleep.  But he says consciousness, awareness, of sleep is there, because when you awaken in the morning, you can say either I slept well, or I did not sleep well.  That is, he is saying that there is a subtle awareness that exists throughout sleep such that the morning after the mind awakens, it remembers that it was aware of the sleep state.

I just want you to be aware that all teachers, or most all teachers, have a model of existence or ontology, and of knowing or knowledge, called epistemology, and they have a set of methods to confirm the model they are passing on to their students.

Nisargadatta is a prime example of this.  His teacher, Siddharameshwar, told him from their first meeting, that he was not his body, that he must not identify with his body, that he was Brahman, and even beyond that, the knower of Brahman.  He was given a mantra to be repeated endlessly.  The mantra was “I am Brahman and Brahman is I.”  In addition, after realization, he developed the technique of fixating on the I am sensation and following it to its root in Turiya and beyond, to the absolute or para-Brahman.

Since almost all spiritual traditions rely on a model of existence, and a model of knowing her knowledge, which shape our student’s spiritual experiences, and which also provide a framework for his future teachings to his own students.  Because there are so many different spiritual traditions, there are so many different models of reality, such that there is a vast range of differing experiences and methods, such that the awakening of one tradition conceivably is completely different from the awakening or enlightenment aimed at in a different tradition.

So ponder these things in your own way and your own time when listening to various spiritual teachers are reading their books.  Tried to tease out the underlying model that that teacher has in mind when he or she speaks.  If you do this, you are well on your way to finding your own truth because you question the source of the spiritual teachings you hear with your ears or see with your eyes.

26 August 2016

In the West, the distinction between matter and consciousness was clearly made only a few hundred years ago. But, because of science and technology, the realm of matter has always been given more attention. There is no science of consciousness or spirit.  In the West we are still trying to reduce spirit to matter, to the brain and nervous system, with the external world being real, and our bodies and brains create a picture in consciousness of that real external world.

For Ramana, only consciousness is real, with the material world considere unreal because the objects and experiences within it are temporary, changeable, impermanent, without a self-sustaining existence outside of consciousness.  For him, consciousness has two aspects: the field of experience and the witnessing of that field which also was an aspect of consciousness.  For him, the material world and all experiences were illusory, a dream, because they did not last, and didn’t exist outside of our awareness of them.  Thus for the Advaita tradition, consciousness was primary existence and we needed to recognize that all experiences, including that of an apparent external world, only occur in our own consciousness.  So everything is consciousness, you, me, waking state, dream and deep sleep states. 

Robert Adams held this to be true also, but emphasized that one needs not to identify with any situation within that play of consciousness, but only with the totality of consciousness, one’s entire manifest experience as an apparent human, and also the world of apparent objects.  They are one totality.

For Robert though, that which was absent any experience at all, nothingness, was the real source of consciousness, the no-place from which the whole field of consciousness sprung as its projection.

In the West, about 400 years ago, Immanuel Kant gave the name “Noumena” to that nothingness, which was only nothingness, because it could not be experienced, thus had no quality or characteristics such as time, space, extention or existential qualities of any sort.

Doug Harding called this place, “I,” and created what he called the science of the subject, wherein each of us became the source of our experiential world, and taught exercises to make this an existential reality.

For all, there was no death when the body dies, because only the existential aspect of our lives disappears, but the subject aspect never does because the subject is not within the field of existence. Our essence, as subject, as witness, as noumena, remained untouched because it did not exist within the realm of matter of experience.

For all the Advaitin traditions the path was the same: 1. Disidentify with the body; 2. Identify instead with our entire field of consciousness, our Manifest Self, which was universal and pervaded everywhere and was the same in everyone; 3. And then go beyond to discover and identify with the eternal subject, the Self, nothingness, which lies prior to or beyond any and all of existence, where there is no need, no want, only divine peace.

Other paths, such as Chakra yoga, Kundalini Yoga, Tantra, tended to emphasize one or more aspects of consciousness, such as Kundalini, the life force, Ma Kali, or Shiva, the observer, or the creator, Brahman.  Advaitins considered this playing on the surface of the field of consciousness.

23 August 2016


I talked to Marie last week and wanted to update her followers about her health and the 150 cats she cares for in Los Angeles.
Marie had been subjected to unending medical tests since I wrote about her months ago.  Her cancer staging has been upgraded from III rd to IVth stage uterine cancer.  The tumor spread to her kidneys and bladder, but apparently has only minimally invaded those organs.  She has had three chemo sessions each a month apart to be followed soon by a PET scan to see how far the tumor has retreated, and whether Marie can progress to radiation treatment to reduce the tumor further prior to surgery.  She said chemo has been very tolerable, which is unusual for this type of chemo.
But the stress of having cancer and worry about the welfare of her cats and keeping her surrogates supplied with cat food has left her feeling overwhelmed and vulnerable, and therefore unable to reach out to thos who so kindly provided financial support.  In the minimum, it will be six weeks before she can have surgery and another 8-12 weeks to recover after that.

But there is a dire financial need to support her efforts to supply her surrogates with cat food and other supplies, so I am once again asking my readers to help her financially.  I send Marie about $270 a month that I get from Internet donations and my own paychecks, which maxes me out.
So I am requesting donations for her to be mailed to:
Marie Schuckles
8860 Corbin Avenue
Northridge, CA  91324


19 August 2016

Every morning, immediately after waking, just the feeling “I am” is felt. After that, witnessing of the world happens.  First you witness the “I am” sensation, the feeling that you are, that you exist.  This primary witnessing is the prerequisite for all subsequent witnessing.  But to whom is witnessing occurring?  This is what Robert and Nisargadatta ask.

It occurs to one that ever is, even without waking, to the ever present substratum.  

The mystery of the worldly experience is at this point.  Now you have woken up, and the witnessing of waking happens.  The primary witnessing is of my own presence, my existence.  The waking state, or the sense of existence, is a temporary state, alternating with the deep sleep, waking and dream states which together constitute consciousness.

So, you need to become acquainted with that witnessing substratum, the invisible, formless, intangible self that is the listener, the seer, the feeler, who itself is not of this world, but prior to it.  This is That which ever is, who responds to his/her name being called when asleep, who hears the sounds of wind, rain, and thunder.

31 July 2016


I supported him from the beginning. I voted for him in the primaries.  I even started a blog to support him. I was outraged by Debbie Wasserman  Schultz’s actions and called for her firing. But Bernie lost whether it was rigged or not.

Bernie is the victim, yet he supports Clinton.  Why?  Because he has already begun a vast change in the system.  Hillary’s platform is Bernie’s socialist platform, and he is not a powerhouse in the Democratic party as opposed to being an isolated independent senator with little power.
AND, as he says over and over, Hillary is a thousand times better as president than Trump, and he is going to fight to keep her progressive along with all of the millions of people who voted for him in a progressive movement. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/bill-maher-bernie-sanders-strop-trump_us_579c4522e4b0e2e15eb610bf?section=
Bernie is the victim yet wholeheartedly backs Clinton.  Why aren’t you?

Many of you are lost in rage against the system thinking only to deny Clinton the presidency because she is the embodiment of the system.  But so is Trump.  In addition, he is insane, a bigot, a hater, a divider, an unabashedly self-centered egomaniac who will unabashedly use the presidency to enhance Trump enterprises and to pump his grandiosity until it explodes in ways I do not want to see.
I do not want to fight this battle anymore. I have stated where I stand.

So, I make you an offer.  If you lack the discrimination to see through Trump and the danger he poses, and if you fail to see his lack of compassion and heart, and still want him to be president because you are deranged with anger at the system, or worse, you are a Republican, please let me know that you still back him.  I will remove you from my friends list and maybe take the time to block you because I can not be bothered any longer caring so much for my friends who want to destroy themselves because of their blind rage and lack of reality perspective.

I care for you so much it hurts that you cannot see clearly the danger Trump poses for the country and for you.

I don't hate Trump at all. I sort of like the persona he pretends to be. But I definitely see the danger he poses to all of us and the path he will take, whatever that is, because he has not outlined any path but one of bigotry and divisiveness.

30 July 2016


America has a two-party system.  It is a binary system.  It is one or the other.  Winner take all.  There really are no coalition politics in the American two-party system.

However, what we have seen with Clinton/Sanders is an attempt to form a two-party de facto coalition of a nascent social democratic party with a broader Democratic party.

Take a look at the Democratic platform for 2016.  Most of what Saunders was shooting for is in that platform.  However, few of us believe that Clinton will adhere to those party planks, and will shed them once president.

But some of us have watched Bernie throughout the election process.  Yes, the system was rigged against him from getting the nomination.  Perhaps if it had not been so rigged, he may have gotten another 200 pledged delegates, and cut Clinton’s lead to razor thinness.  But as Bernie has stated, “THIS IS REALITY,” thereby moving the universe of discourse from a socialist goal to the reality of creating a de facto coalition party, of a Social Democratic Party, and the Democratic Party.  This is the reality.  Bernie has forced Clinton to take on many of the precepts of his Democratic Socialism in order to get his endorsement, his delegates, and his followers to come along and support Hillary Clinton for president.

So many people are so angry at Clinton having witnessed the ring system against which Bernie fought, but this is reality.  It takes time to change.  Already Bernie has changed it by eliminating 500 superdelegate positions in future year elections.  In 2020, if Bernie or Sen. Warren want to run for president, not only will they be part of the Newer Establishment at that time, but the entire election process will better reflect what actual voters want as opposed to what the establish party wants.

Those of you who are still so angry at Clinton because of what the DNC did together with Clinton, have to take note of the disaster we will face a year after Donald Trump is elected.  Bernie sees the peril in electing Donald Trump.  As he states, he will do everything possible to eliminate that possibility, and to elect the coalition candidate Hillary Clinton.  Remember, Bernie is going to be a central heavyweight now in the Senate, impossible to ignore, constantly prompting Clinton towards a more socialist leaning.  Perhaps within the next four years we will see the founding of the Democratic Socialist party as a third-party, which could easily supplant the Green party was true and effective vote-power.

So drop your hatred of Clinton, and work with Bernie and her, to get her elected and to stop Trump.  Can you imagine what the world would be like two years after a Trump election?  Can you imagine the chaos?  Can you imagine the danger?  Can you imagine the disappointment in all of those who elected Trump and saw his presidency turn into the disaster he predicted would happen if Hillary were elected?  Can you imagine anyone who voted for Trump been having second thoughts that they are to blame?  No, they will blame Trump for having failed them, holding themselves faultless.

The American electorate appears to be stupid beyond belief.  Therefore it is for us who can better discriminate the reality of what faces us in the upcoming election to work to stabilize the Democratic Socialist/Democratic Party coalition that Bernie and Clinton have forged, and to make it the party of the future.

24 July 2016


     Many Advaitin teachers speak of transcending the body, individuality, and the self, and even teaching the transcendence the personality.
     But what are they talking about?
     One such teacher I talked to said he no longer had any sense f identity to anything, and that everything was Shakti. I don't known exactly what he means, except that maybe he "sees," "feels," "understands," that nothing is him, and everything perceived and experienced is "other," Shakti. Or maybe he means he too, his sense of existence is also Shakti.
     But has he lost his personality? If he has, what was his experience? Did he feel he no longer was a human, or did he feel he no longer had a "personality," that which has emotions, moods, makes decisions, and has habit patterns of reactions to the world?
     I don't know what he, or other teachers mean when they talk about their alleged transcendence.
     I for one, definitely feel my personality, my emotions, my individuality, my body, and say, "All this is part of me, one aspect of me."
     I also "understand" that all the apparent world and my body are objects within my own consciousness when I am awake. So I am aware that essentially I am consciousness which includes thinking and the mind as well as memories and intuitions. I carefully watch and also feel into the entirety of my consciousness as a living totality of awareness.
     This consciousness is continually changing, variable, and features one experience or one aspects in an unending flow of experiences and objects. One can say there is an experiencer and the flow of conscious experiences which are objects. Or one can say the experiences and the experiencer are one. Sometimes it appears one or the other is a true statement, sometimes that neither is.
     Then sometimes I can self experience as awareness without mind, without a sense of self or world, without the I Am sensation, and just stay there too, knowing and experiencing nothing.
     All these states of consciousness come and go, including the experiences of coming awake out of a dark and moist nothingness, which is totally relaxing and in total peace.
     I am also aware of my awareness of these various states. These states come and go on me, the witness.
     But my resting state is that of being me as awareness, aware of the life force inside and acting through this body/mind, indwelling my own sense of presence that permeates my body and mind and the space around my body and mind, and all permeated by an empty space, itself permeated by the light of consciousness. I feel the energies inside, not really inside the body, but inside of my energetic self, and feel "see" the life force and the intelligence of consciousness within me. I think Robert calls this the Brahman state. Certainly this is what Nisargadatta called Brahman: the totality of my manifest consciousness or self.
     I am certainly aware of nothingness as the dark void from which I as consciousness emerge each day, and to which I return each night, and which I experience from time to time by being totally merged into itself. But it is not my primary identification.
     Regarding personality, it is my position that personality does not reside in the body or mind, but in the totality of my consciousness. My individual expression of consciousness has its own unique fingerprint in terms of emotional reactions, opinions, lack of opinions, ways of expression, behaviors, directions and desires. I think the rush towards transcendence is often a rush to deny one's own humanity and leads to a poverty rather than transcendence.
     Nisargadatta says in his book the Experience of Nothingness, that once he heard the words that he had cancer, he lost all identification with his body and taught from that denial the last two or three years of his life.
     This is clear indication that he ran from body identification once he knew his body was dying. In fact, much of that book and others written around that time, was his obsession with death, and since he didn't identify with either his body or consciousness, he was not worried or bothered, except that he hoped death came quietly without too much pain.
     I have known hundreds of teachers up close.      From my point of view, all had prominent personalities and all were very human, even if a few claimed not to have a self or personality. What is actually going on in them, I don't know, and often, when describing their self-experience they use abstract or Sanskrit terms that hide rather than reveal who they are.
     Robert was the closest person I ever knew to be close to being totally empty and not there. He was uniquely empty. Others tend to be talking heads.

23 July 2016

No matter how relaxed or inspired you feel when listening to Robert's words on audio, or read Nisargadatta's or Ramana's words, realize they are just words. They are concepts spinning in your mind, making you feel emotionally held, relaxed, etc.

Those words you listen to are about Robert's experiences beyond or prior to mind, that are being spoken to your mind, which interprets his beyond-mind words into your experience which is generally mind-bound.

The best way to benefit from those words is to ignore what they say you are beyond mind, but to "feel" into your sense of Self, into the I Am sensation, which at its root are all levels of being, from the I Am, to Nothingness.

Forget about all teachings about no self, no-mind, no separate self, the body is illusion, the world is unreal, and just focus on feeling your I Am. Merger with the I Am sense will reveal yourself as pure Consciousness, the life force, and the energy being that you are. You become the incarnated Krishna, the I Am descended into your body bringing life and sentience.

After this experience, your unfolding takes care of itself. No more work or focus is necessary unless your own self demands more work.